Auditions and The Night Out With The Girls

Today was such a weird day!!My business stuff is slow cause it is the middle of August but it will pick up next week. I guess it was a blessing in disguise, because I was able to recover from Surgery. I had an audition that the Casting Director and I had the same birthday!!!!! It was awesome!! I think he thought I was a little crazy!! I met up with my girls and we went to Iguana Lounge and had a blast!!!! 

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My backscene silent film from behind the scenes on "Date Night" in Queens NY

I miss this girl! She was fun and blond  and really just want to go back to her.

To Have a blog about your life's journey you need to speak about it right. I am gonna start putting pics from the blast from the past and really bring you more into my life in the future. Set back and enjoy the show of my life.


Thank you dolls


Ashley

Anxiety

Today is one of those difficult days that you dread. It will start off well by me going to a audtion to a skincare line. I love the entertainment side of my life. The other side is hard cause my roomate and I have to see if we are staying in this apartment or not. I am trying to lauch a career and what I am noticing is the factor that I can not sleep because the knots in my back. I really need a massage but there is no time. Sometimes when you feel alone even though I know that I am not it makes you where you can not breath. It makes you tired and you work through the exhaustion but feel there is no end in sight.

Life after Death

When you are in tune with own thoughts, it becomes a very scary thing.  When you younger, you always live your life by the seat of your pants and never worry. People come and go, and you never notice it cause you are working on you not the world. One day you wake up and realize this factor when the ones that you love the most leave you and touch them or them any longer. Since I have been gone from Oklahoma City, every one that I left are no longer there. For different circumstances you do not go back for one reason or another.  But when you do not go home, you never receive the closure that is well deserved to put your mind at rest.  As weird as this sounds when I was in Oklahoma in May I  had to look at their gravestones for the first time and realize that they were gone.. I came home  to bury my grandfather so that closure was there. Almost two months after my visit there my state of mourning still lingers in my soul!! Am I holding on too long or am I justified?